Febuary 10, 2014
Dearly Beloved,
Well, I've written so many letters by now - what's one more? But I don't think I'll ever stop writing - there is just too much to say in so little time. Already, it's been close to two years and still, my heart jumps up to my throat as I write these letters to you. I'm amazed at myself at just how vulnerable I become as I open up and express my love, my gratitude, and the myriad emotions I didn't know I was capable of expressing, especially when I'm so stoic, indifferent, sometimes complacent outside of the paper you now hold in your hands.
Now, the big day of love will arrive shortly, in several day's time, and what will I do? I briefly close my eyes, and think. Last year, I didn't have this predicament - somehow you took care of it. Now, it's my turn to step up and solve this conundrum. You would think, just from these letters alone, I'd already have the solution. And I do, only it's cliché and I immediately dismiss the idea altogether. In the cliché, I discovered, you always found it dull and cheap (your words, not mine). So I always had to discover original ideas. Well, at least as original as I can be in this modern era ("Everything's been all done before! It's so depressing.").
Would it be cliché if I made you breakfast in bed? If I stumbled with the morning sun, to prepare a delicious meal, and then juggle it back to our bedroom? Would it be cliché to see you wake up to the aromas of warm food, to see your green eyes caked in sleep, and your crimson lips crack a counterfeit smile? After all, you know that if it came down to it, this would happen. I am a guy first, and a lover second (unfortunately). And would it be cliché if I smiled subtly or even laughed as a morsel of food would spill from your generous lips? Perhaps so, and now that you know this, I know not to do this. I've got to "keep the magic alive", as they always say.
And in the end, no matter what happens, if my cliché unfortunately becomes reality or if I somehow managed to conjure up a more unique experience, all that matters is that you're with me, by my side. After all, there will be a Valentine's Day a year from now, and there will be countless more to follow after that (unfortunately...).
XOXO,
Your Lover